Finding God in the Music

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I lost Jesus at 14 when the woman I loved most in this world was crushed by an eighteen-wheeler. I didn’t trust God anymore. What kind of world kills your grandmother and her best friends on their way to a fundraiser?

In the absence of His love and that of my beloveds, I found myself a man; But in the end I couldn’t (and wouldn’t) trust him either. Neither did my own father remain steadfast in his love. Those years were swollen with pain, as I watched my family splinter, until there was little left upon which I could rest faith.

Shortly after I gave up on God, some of my siblings took up with him–in that boorish, effusive way of the freshly born-again. Their new-found love, only made me lonelier; and their certainty that Jesus belonged to them, left me wondering how he had ever been my friend.

In my twenties, I came to Al-Anon, and began dating my Higher Spirit, who remained faceless, and who never quite hit the spot like the handsome guy in robes with penetrating eyes and long, sandy hair. It would be decades before I came to peace without a spiritual beloved, and until then I searched for him in many faiths.

When I finally found what I was looking for, it wasn’t in a chapel or a temple or even a women’s circle, it was in the music.  On the night before my beloved grandfather’s funeral–the man who lost his wife to the tragedy that stole God–my sister handed me some music that she was ready to discard.

She saved my soul that night, though not in the way she had always wanted.

When the soloist delivered Jesus to me in her rich, sultry tones, it didn’t matter that the stirring I felt inside made no sense.

When the storms in my life are raging. When the weight of this world drives me to my knees… I found a Hiding Place…

I felt the love that had once been mine.

I reclaimed Spirit then, in every song and sound, no matter whence it sprang…

Allah, Yahweh, Jesus, Krishna, Shakti, Kuan Yin, Earth, Water, Sky, Home

With music–and now movement–I make sacred the mystery of this journey we call life, without needing to name it or know why.

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Moon Circles & Wheel of Life Retreats

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A series of ongoing YogaDance “Circles” and “Retreats” for Women is taking place through spring in Southern Vermont.

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Both the “circles” and the “retreats” include YogaDancing through the chakras~with music and movement especially aligned with the season.

The Moon Circles take place in the evening and include brief ritual and meditation as well as dancing.

The Wheel of Life Retreats take place in the afternoon with expanded ritual, meditation and communal art.

Take a look at the upcoming dates to see if you’d like to be a part of the energy of women gathering with movement and ritual.

Space in these imitate gatherings is limited so advance registration is necessary.

 

UPCOMING DATES

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~Full Moon Circle, Thursday, February 17, from 6:30 to 8 pm.

(FULL)

~Spring Equinox Retreat, Sunday, March 20, from 1 to 3:30 pm.

(Waiting list only)

~Beltane Retreat, Sunday, May 1, from 1 to 3:30 pm.

(Waiting list only)

~All offered by donation~

Contact me to inquire about available space in either a circle or retreat.

 

Yours in the Dance!
Kelly

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